eereena

A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold, the bird froze and fell to the ground in a large field. While it was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on it. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, it began to realize how warm it was. The dung was actually thawing him out! Soon, a farmer passed by and heard the little bird chirping. Seeing the poor creature covered with dung, he decided to help the bird get out of the mess and placed it under a shrub. By this time, the bird was feeling warm and chirpy. and A cat passing by heard the sounds, saw the bird and ate it up.

Morals of the story?
1) Not everyone who drops shit on you is your enemy.
2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
3) When you’re in deep shit, it might be better just to keep your mouth shut.

A turkey was chatting with a bull. “I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree,” sighed the turkey, “but I haven’t got the energy.” “Well, why don’t you nibble on some of my droppings?” replied the bull. “They’re packed with nutrients.” The turkey pecked at a lump of dung and found that it actually gave him enough strength to reach the first branch of the tree. The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally after a fourth night, there he was proudly perched at the top of the tree. Soon he was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot the turkey out of the tree.

The moral of the story?
Bullshit might get you to the top, but it won’t keep you there.

A crow was sitting on a tree, doing nothing all day. A small rabbit saw the crow, and asked him, “Can I also sit like you and do nothing all day long?” The crow answered: “Sure, why not.” So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the crow, and rested. All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

The moral of the story?
To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.

A priest was driving along and saw a nun on the side of the road, he stopped and offered her a lift which she gladly accepted. She got in and Crossed her legs, forcing her gown to open and reveal a lovely leg. The priest had a look and nearly had an accident. After controlling the car, he stealthily slid his hand up her leg. The nun looked at him and immediately said, “Father, remember psalm 129?” The priest was flustered and apologized profusely. He forced himself to remove his hand. However, he was unable to remove his eyes from her leg. Further on, while changing gear, he let his hand slide up leg again. The nun once again said, “Father, remember psalm 129?” Once again the priest apologized. “Sorry sister, but the mind is weak.” Arriving at the convent, the nun got out, gave him a meaningful glance and went on her way. On his arrival at the church, the priest rushed to retrieve a bible and looked up psalm129. It said, “Go forth and seek; further up, and you will find glory.”

The moral of the story?
Always be well informed in your job; Or you might miss a great opportunity.

Spoke to someone today and he ask me so how is Eereena like and can you describe her? Haa....weird right asking me to describe myself. Actually, to be frank I also dont know myself that well. I feel that I've changed alot in the past few years and Im still constantly changing and searching for the real me. Based on my own perception, Eereena is..........

Eereena is very loyal to her friends and they are very integral part of her life.She values her friends alot and cant' imagine doing w/o them. Friends shares her joys, happiness, sorrows and pain. To her, they are sometimes closer then her family members. There are experiences, feelings and thoughts that she shares with them even her own folks may not be aware of. She will try her utmost best to ensure that these dear confidantes are happy and well taken care of.

Eereena can be v stubborn and independent if she wants to. On certain principles and values which she feels is right, she will stick by them. She wants to earn her own money and pay for items for herself and her loved ones. She tries not to rely on others if possible.

Eereena is someone who loves her freedom. She doesnt like rules and regulations or anything that binds her. She likes the feeling of doing things she likes at her own pace and time. She loves to travel and to see the world. She will like to try her hands on different activities and experiences. To her, this is real living.

Eereena is a pretty lazy and messy girl. Guess there isnt a need to elaborate. Haa....those who know will KnOW....:P

Eereena does not have a good grasp of time management. OkOk...this is on my list of change and improvement....:(

Eereena believes in trying her best in whatever she does so that she doesnt live with regrets. (Try to lah...)

Eereena loves surprises and making people around her smile :) This makes her happy...

Eereena is a low risk taker and is pretty grounded and rational. When it comes to love, sometimes the heart takes over....erm...abit too much at times...haa....When she falls in love, she is happy and emo, she is afraid yet courageous, she is selfless and giving, she is willing to sacrifice so that others are happy...she is just blind lah...haaa :P

Eereena secretly hope to be swept off her feet by Mr. truly romantic prince charming in a white horse and just be a lil' princess for a day. Maybe bringing her to a lil' island to watch sunset while sipping champagne and ice cream and serending her with his beautiful voice *Dreams*

Eereena is Ms Indecisive when it comes to tough decisions and matters of the heart. She hopes that the answers can be presented infront of her so she doesnt need to decide. *Dream on....*

Eereena finds it difficult to reject people and is learning to do so so that she doesnt feel so tired obliging to everyone and everything. Sometimes she will rather be a lil' woman than a superwoman.

Eereena dislikes quarrels and fights. She is a peacemaker and will rather compromise and give in if possible rather than having a war to resolve the issue. Eereena dislikes hyprocrites and cheats. She doesnt really have v good impression of people that swear too much or is v rude and disrespectful.

I think recently Eereena begins to enjoy some "me-time" like surfing, reading magazines, listening to music, day-dreaming, watching clips, DVDs, facial, hair wash etc....*Maybe getting older...Haa..*

The friend feels that Eereena is someone who is friendly to all but kept her cards close to her; only revealing it when she has let her guards down. He also feels that she is someone who is "wai rou nei gang"...appears gentle but actually has a tough interior. Really?

What are your views of Eereena? Is it different from my preception of myself? Care to share? :)

*I'm actually doing work still...got lazy so decide to blog...haa...okok, back to work*

If music is the soul to your heart, I hope my voice touches that inner being of yours sliently, slowly and surely....

If singing is fair superior that speaking a thousand words, I hope it surrounds you and feel your heart with joy and happiness...

If I can stir the feelings by belting a tune, I will sing for you always....

Music is an instrument to heal the soul and lift the weary...

I communicate through music....listen and you will feel the beat of my heart....

Music reaches far and wide and transcends all boundaries....

Music binds people and brings them closer together...

~ The above are just some random thoughts on music. However, music is truly an integral part of my life and singing is my ultimate passion~
 

Dear God,

I pray that you will provide me with the positiveness that is badly needed for this crucial and challenging period in my life
I pray that you can give me a listening and understanding heart and the needed wisdom to see through my worries
I pray that you can provide me with boundless energy so that I will not feel weary, tired and drained
I pray that you will guide me and show me the light to the path which I should take
I pray for courage to cross all obstacles along my way
I pray for patience and a calm sirit to weather all storms
I trust that you will give your believers the very best.

In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

* I am trying my very best to cross all challenges in my path with limited "resources" and "support". I know with every step Im learning something new but I just feel so drained at the end of the day. *

Mid September till now has been very stressful, tiring, fulfilling and challenging period for me. Generally my Boss has been pretty nice and the pay is quite decent (enough to live simply and some $$ for travelling) but the busy periods and the demands of the work itself can make you go crazy and want to give up at times.

I truly envy my bestie (Thou she always say she envy me..haaa) :) She has a doting hubby, a cute baby, nice and warm family, a new house and is happy to pursue her dreams and interests. At times, I really feel feel very tired being a superwoman. Always wondering when I can sit back, relax and just let someone take the lead and take care of me. For now, my only perk in life is to chit chat and have coffee with my close friends, travel and enjoy the things I want to do. In the near future, I hope to save enough money to have a house of my own. A place where I can decorate it the way I want it to be where I can cuddle in and just chill out. Not worrying about my folks nagging at me and having to do things their way.

Managed to catch a movie today and bought 2 pairs of shoes (Including a pair of ankle boots for my inpending Jpn Trip *claps*). I used to be able to spend alot of time with my friends, watching movie, singing KTV, having fun but lately watching a movie alone is considered a luxury. Little things like a movie, a coffee session and some "ME" time is very much treasured. Even my face is starting a mini riot with pimples and peeling skin for the past 2 weeks. *sigh* I must plan for some "pampering me" session soon! My boyfriend have also started to ask me: "wah...you are not going out? No plans for the week?" Haa...I will love to make plans but I can't as last minute meetings and work can change everything. I'm even wondering if I like what I see now. Haa...Eereena the workaholic!! New Nick...Haa..:P

Sorry pals if I neglected you recently as Im truly very busy and I wish I can be there to have fun with u all :) Miss u all....

My CurRent LoVes...

I love the companionship of my close friends and it never fails to perk me up even in my darkest moments. Guess Im a person who loves companionship and having fun!~

I love Photography! Both taking pictures and having people taking pictures of me. This is probably one of the "yi chuan" items from my daddy. My dad is a freelance photographer in the past and I had many albums of myself taken by him since I was a baby. I can entertain myself with my camera for a few hours and not feel tired...pretty amazing I must say. I'm even thinking of taking up formal photography lessons next year and be a freelance photographer or a travel photographer in time to come. 

I love singing and music so much so that my boyfriend finds it irritating when I sing non stop to myself for a few hours on some days.  He will ask me: " when did u last sing KTV huh?" Haa!~ Music is an integral part of my life and I cannot do w/o it. NEVER.....

I love travelling especially in the past 3 years. You can say Im addidicted to travel and to see the world. Ain't it wonderful if I can be a travel photographer? A nice combination of my 2 loves. Hmm...let me start by taking up lessons first :) I would love to see snow and mountain this Dec!!! Let's see if this dream of mine can be fulfilled...I feel that the world is such a huge and amazing place and it is always a delight to discover new things around the globe.

I love chicken rice, teochew muay, mac donald and chocolate ice creams. These are my stable food...never fail to cheer me up :)

I love PINK...everything that is pink. It is a very sweet colour and will always get me in the mood for love :)

I love art and craft. I like to spend time creating nice little gifts for my loved ones and brightening their lives. I feel that something personalised, customised and handmade with love is always very genuine and filled with warmth and love.

I love surprises and gifts that are thoughtful and straight from the heart. Be it a simple cup of ice milo or strumming of a guitar. As long as it is with effort and thought, it is fully appreciated by me.

I love to laugh :) *Minus off the occasional bad moods and stressful periods which I do snap* I feel that laughter is a form of destressing and makes others happy too!!~

I love watching movies. It is very destressing for me too. Just indulging yourself in the scenes and storylines. Picturing yourself as someone else in the story and escaping reality for awhile...

I love spas and having someone pampering me. Simply SHIOK!!~

I love nature. Mountains, lakes, beaches, sea, clouds, forest, sunset, sunrise, waterfalls etc....It is always changing and the beauty of it is simply breathtaking.

I love reading magazines. Mainly because I love gossips, graphics, pictures, tips and tricks and fashion and you never know what you will get inside the next issue. :)

I love having my $$$$ growing...Haa..I guess everyone loves this. Im trying to save and spend at the same time *Contradicting* :P Anyhow I have a goal by 2010 and I hope to achieve it somehow....*Jia you jia you*

I want to find time to enjoy my loves and to fulfill the goals and plans that God has installed for me :)

How can the day be sooooOOOOOo bad? *Ponders* I had a crazy crazy week (few weeks to be exact)...been working till late...rushing e-mails, proposals etc so much so that my health breaks down....my laptop breaks down too. *Sigh* Its a super sian feeling when you know you are sick (Fever, flu and sore throat) yet you cant rest well cos phone calls and e-mails are always coming in. Worst still, you lappie decides to give itself a break, refuse to start and you have difficulty backing up your files. At 1.41am now, my external harddisk is also telling me it wants to give up too!!!~ Can someone tell me what's happening??!!!! *HEEEEELLLLOOOOOOO*
 
I have no clue as to who should I turn to to perform this backup service (will have to comb thru the shops in sim lim tomorrow), all my old e-mails are stuck in the lappie's hardisk, my blackberry also cant syncronise with my new temporary lappie now, there's no PDF function in this temp lappie and I have a lot of e-mails to follow up which is also stuck in the lappie's hardisk.

The only 2 perks of the day is A) that I am able to retrieve an important doc and send it out and B) meeting my buddy for a quick dinner + complaining session. *Thanks bud for being there* :) I guess I can only take one step at a time and find solutions along the way. I also need plenty of rest this weekend and will love to spend time with my friends and do things I like (which I have been deprived with for the past 2 weeks at least). As my friend puts it, "you are already very lucky that you are not a victim of the tsunami, typhoon, flood and earthquake and can still complain about the omelette dinner you just ate. You are already very lucky" Gosh...guess I can only think about it this way to make myself feel better. I need hope, a positive mindset and quick recovery. God, pls restore the items which are lost (namely my lappie's docs to be exact). In Jesus name, I pray. Thank you in advance....

I didnt sleep since 9am on the morning of 25 Sep 09. The time now is 5am in the morning of 26 Sep 09 and I need to get up soon to prep for my friend's wedding. My eyes are tired....my shin is painful...my body is drained but my mind is still pretty wide awake bcos of my stupid, irritating, unreasonable, drunk, jealous bf!!!! *GRRRrrrr* There are times when I feel he could be the one as he is funny, caring, attentive, driven and smart. But there are really times that I fear my judgements may be wrong. There are times when he is jealous, insecure, super nonsencial and totally irritating. He will piss you to the max... to the point where you really feel like giving up talking to him. To some extend I do agree that Im prideful, Im very loyal and very nice to my close friends and I can be very stubborn on things I truly believe in but I really hate it when he accuses me, imagines scenarios in his head in his drunk state and refuse to listen to anything I have to say.  Knowing perfectly well that I have a wedding to help and attend to at 6.30am and refusing to put down the phone at 3.30am!!!!

I really dont know what to say. Perhaps writing my thoughts down will cool me down and make me feel better. I really wish I can call someone but decided not to disturb anyone at this ungodly hour.  Maybe I'm just not good enough for him despite all the things I've done and time I've spent waiting. Suddenly the road infront of me seems quite bleak and Im losing faith. I already have alot going on in my head - work stress, friend's wedding prep, tired body, a nagging daddy.... I really appreciate if my bf doesnt add this unnecessary issue to the list that's already present. *sigz* Anyhow, I have given him a choice if he wants to attend my friend's wedding tonight. We shall see how things are later. I have to drag my limp body out of bed now....long day....weary heart...God, pls bless me with your grace, wisdom and strength.  

 

Dearest Bestie Glad,

Here's a letter written for you. :) You told me recently that when we were kiddos we use to write letters to each other and my letters are often decorated with colourful designs and graphics and I will never forget to sign off with "you are my best friend forever". Since it has been many donkey years since I last wrote a letter to you, I've decided to write u one electronically via a blog!!!~

Here's to my bestie:

Thank you for being in an important part of my life for the past XxXXXxXX number of years...
Thank you sharing your friends with me and they have in turn become very good friends of mine...(You know who you are *Hugs*)
Thank you for always willing to lend me your listening ear, your shoulder to cry on and your hand to hold in good times and bad...
Thank you for sharing/keeping secrets with/for me always...
Thank you for standing by me (As long as Singapore stands...haaa...)
Thank you for the treats, the gifts and keeping me in mind when you are shopping/overseas...
Thank you for planning my bday celebrations every year and making it memorable....
Thank you for waiting for me when Im late....
Thank you for laughing at my jokes and sharing the "same frequency" as me...
Thank you for sharing all your tips, tricks and beauty mantras with me...
Sorry for being an irritant at times and also for the scar you had on your hand...(Hehe)

You have been the best friend anyone could ever ask for and I hope our friendship can last for many many centuries to come.

With Love,

Nana :)

Just finished watching Coco before Chanel and despite the sometimes draggy scenes, it is a nice show afterall. Some audience will expect a showcase full of Chanel bags and clothes but instead it gives u realism in flim. It is one of those rags to riches show but not the fairytale sort. No prince in shiny armour, no dreamy love stories and no princess in fanciful gowns. In its place is a straightforward and talented female living in a world where the male species is dominant and she has to find her way to success.

Somehow the show seems to tell me that hardwork and talent is just not enough at times, you still need luck, opportunity and the right people to help you get to where u want to be. Though Coco is talented in sewing and also have a mind of her own, she still need to turn to the men in high society to help her pave the way. I guess we are all looking for the glimpse of luck and chance to guide us through life. When the time comes, I hope we all have the courage to grab it with all our might and not forgetting to thank the people and God above for that chance.

With the above, there is also another important element to success, it is to believe you can do it and also not to give up on your dreams. Coco from the beginning have never given up on her passion for clothes and sewing and this propels her to pursue her dreams despite all the unhappiness in her life. 

The last lingering thought in my mind after watching the movie is the fact that we may need to lose somethings in life in order to gain others. Coco succeeded in the end by filfilling her dreams and started a new empire in the Fashion industry but she never got married and she resigns to the fact that she will never marry anyone. In reality, many a times, we also have to forgo one thing for the other. Some people forgo personal happiness, some people forgo time spent with family and friends, some people forgo things they like to do, some people forgo integrity....the list goes on....I guess in life things are often this way but I feel it is important to pioritise what's most important on hand and try to find some kind of balance somehow (Thou easier said than done..Haa).

Anyhow, the above are just some after thoughts for pure reading pleasure :) May everyone have the opportunity to pursue their dreams, find success in life and also strike a balance in everything you do. Good Luck dearies  and Have a great weekend:) 

Dear God,

I would like to say a prayer to you today.

I hope to be given the patience and inner peace to deal with anger, stress and unhappiness.
I hope to receive the sense of forgiveness into my life and Im able to send away all unhappy thoughts.
I hope to be able to send love and care to all my friends and family.
I hope to be able to see things from others' perspective and I hope they can too.
I treasure my loved ones and I hope you can shower your abundance of grace upon them irregardless of what happens.

In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Emona :)

*My friend shared with me he saw a person died in a car accident today and the person died w/o having his breakfast which he bought along and was splattered on the road. Guess life is really unpredictable and short. We cant change fate but we can live everyday as if its the last so that we will pass on w/o regrets. I would like to say "I love you", friends and family!~ *Hugz*

I attended the service last sunday by Pastor Prince and it was indeed a v refreshing, meaningful and happy session :) I realised that Im looking forward and enjoying my sundays..In the past sundays used to be sleep ins till like 1-2pm? and laze around doing doing much or hang out with my friends. Sundays seemed more meaningful now and I had a good time laughing at Pastor prince's jokes. (I must say his jokes is super funnie..those that I can truely understand and very ME!~)

He shared about the sense of forgiveness last sunday via 2 simple stories. Story 1: He was driving on the highway with his wifey and whatever his wife said, he snapped at her and was becoming v irritated. Hence, being the kind and patient wife, she asked him what's wrong. He then start to examine within himself and realised that the cause of his bad mood was due to A) a tiff with his relative and B) correcting his staff earlier. He dun feel good deep within because of all these guilt and unhappiness and this affected his mood and in turn affected others. Story 2: There was this guy who owned the King 10mil and the King decided to clear the debts of the man without asking for anything in return. The man did not appreciate the kindness of the King and went out to collect a $100 debt from another guy. The King heard about it and was very angry. He then send this man into a dungeon.

Very often we tend to make mistakes like being irritable at someone and we are also upset at others due to what they have done to us. We tend to also hold grudges and be unhappy for a long time. Isnt it time that we should throw and send away all these bad thoughts, unhappiness and sad feelings and be a more forgiving person like how God forgave us no matter what we have done? I guess this is the greatest love for one. With this, we will be a happier and more generous person :) It is true that this may not be easy but with time and practise, we can try to be one. I will start to examine within myself and also think in others' shoes. I want to be a forgiving person and be happy by making others happy:)

Pastor Prince also proceed to ask all the people present to perform an exercise by saying a prayer for each other to cast away all those unforgiving thoughts and unhappy feelings and forgive others. The friend that Im angry with 1-2 weeks ago was sitting next to me and we said the prayer to each other. As if God is asking me to forgive him and ask him to throw away the irritating thoughts. So funnie :) Anyhow, Im not angry with my friend long time ago..Haa...cant be angry with someone for so long. I will feel v uneasy to be upset for too long..the most 1-2 days and I will try to seek a resolution :P 

Look forward to learn new things every week and be a better person :)
 

S.H.E. - 魔力

懂得讓我微笑的人　再沒有誰比你有天份
輕易闖進我的心門　明天的美夢你完成
整個宇宙　浩瀚無邊的盡頭　每顆渺小星球　全都繞著你走
愛我　非你莫屬　我只願　守護　由你給我的幸福
愛我　非你莫屬　也許會　笑著哭　但那人是你所以　不怕苦

懂得讓我流淚的人 給的感動一定是最深
在我心中留下傷痕 你同時點亮了星辰
整個宇宙浩瀚無邊的盡頭
每顆渺小星球全都繞著你走
愛我　非你莫屬　我只願　守護　由你給我的幸福
愛我　非你莫屬　也許會　笑著哭　但那人是你所以　不怕苦

看那麼多相遇
偏偏只和你
天造地設般產生奇跡
哦我心的縫隙
我想除了你任誰也無法填補這空虛
愛我　非你莫屬　我只願　守護　由你給我的幸福
愛我　非你莫屬　也許會　笑著哭　但那人是你所以　不怕苦

但那人是你
所以不怕苦

Just heard this song today (Don't think its new) but feel that is a nice one :)

Recently (These couple of days especially) I have been bugged with sleepness nights and a queasy feeling through the day + a bloated tummy. Think I must have gotten the stomach flu syndrome :( Pls make it go away and may I recover soon for the weekend!!

Something is amiss in my life and I can't quite put a finger to it...a thing? a person? a presence? an object? an issue? rest? source of happiness? laughters? God? Glad? (Haaa..) I hope to put the chirpiness back in me-self soon!!! Jia you Jia you Eereena!!~

Despite the above, there are some nice things that happened to me too and Im grateful for it :) I'm glad for the companionship of my wonderful friends and family, always there...always supportive. Thank You dearies :)

I must say Im not a christian but I just attended a church service with an open mind recently. I guess different people attend church service with different agendas and reasons. Some turn to a church for support and companionship, some turn to church for faith and belief, some feel that God really speak to them and they find answers in his preaching and words, some like me at this point is curious about what the religion is and what it brings. I would definitely be glad to sit thru a few more services to see if there's a calling for me and I did enjoyed my first service with Pastor Prince. He is indeed a charmer and a it was truly an interesting and eye opening session for me. My close friend have mentioned that God's prayers really work for him especially when he say "In Jesus name I pray". Hence, I have decided to say a lil prayer today.

Dear God,

I pray that the people whom I love who are faced with difficult challenges can overcome it with your grace and blessings.
I pray that those I love who are unhappy will start to feel happiness deep within and may your warmth light up their lives and bring a smile on their faces. 
I pray that those I love are able to grow healthily and not suffer pain and sickness.
I pray that those I love will be able to find their true meaning and position in life and that they will find what they like to do and do it well.
I pray that those I love will enjoy your super abounded grace and favors. 
I pray that those I love will have a fulfilling and satisfying life.
I pray that those I love will be able to turn their weakness into immense strength and see things positively. 
I pray that those I love can be truly happy always :)
As long as they are happy, I am too. 
In Jesus name I pray, Amen.


 

Imagine there are 2 suitors going after you...A is a guy you love alot but he is a simple man...easily contented, not highly educated, earn a decent living but as compared to you, he is earning less and you are definitely more highly educated. He feels that he is limited by his educational level to earn more and climb the corporate ladder and prefers a down to earth and simple life. He loves you but tend to take you for granted at times. A is still searching for what he wants in life and doesnt have a concrete plan of marrying you.

Then comes another suitor B. B loves you alot, he "worships" the ground you walk on...treats you like a princess, is about the same status as you in terms of income and education level, has a car and has a goal in life.  He has a plan for his career and also a plan to marry you in future. You like B as well but you love A more.

You are able to communicate well with both and they each have good qualities you adore.

So which one will you choose? :) Haa...I guess most people will want both...a good mix or A and B :P As for me...Hmm...this is really a super tough question to answer..Can I have both too? Hee.....Let me see....If you ask the heart, it will tell you to choose someone you love cos when you love someone, you tend to be able to give in to alot of things and also compromise. But I feel that a man should always be the leader in the family in carrying the responsibilites and load on his shoulders (He should also respect his wife la, not the MCP sort). Hence, regardless of his education qualification, he should always have the mentality of seeking for self improvement and continued learning to propel himself for greater things in life and not just be contented in having his wife being the bigger breadwinner in the family. I feel that all humans are capable of achievements it is just how much you want to achieve.  I want to be the woman behind the successful man and I will try and help him achieve his limelight. I don't need a man who earns millions of dollars or is a CEO of some big company but somone who prove to me that he is willing to work hard and an attitude to achieve.

The second criteria is how much A loves me. Can A match B in terms of his love for me? - Not through material stuffs like cars, houses, cash but more in terms of his heart.  Does he think of me in times of happiness and sorrows and is he willing to save me no matter what happens. With regards to marriage I guess after seeing so many marriages (Happy and Failed), I not as excited about marrige as compared to when I was younger. The ceremony I feel is more to pleased everyone else except the couple and it can be very very tiring. With due respect to the parents, I think I will still go ahead with the ceremony. I always feel that marriage is just a certificate of prove that you can buy HDB together, you can stay together and have kids. If I have my own freewill, I will probably just stay together or maybe have a small 20pax by the beach balinese style wedding. Something simple, romantic and small. The couple can mingle freely with everyone and just have fun. For now, I just love to travel and have a nice humble house to stay with my loved one. 
If A can truly tell me 1) He can change his mindset and 2) He loves me alot too then A will be my choice.

However, if A is not willing to change at all (Still take things for granted, still as laid back as ever and does not want to show that he loves me alot) then I may choose B in the end. Thou I may not love B as much but I know he is someone who will work for what he wants and he will lay down his life for me. Sometimes chasing after something you desire can be very tiring and there could be alot of heartaches involved and I may not be ready to go through so much pain. It may be easier being a happy and contented woman showered with love.

This is just what I thought but perhaps if this question is a realistic one I may think otherwise...Haa..It is always interesting to ponder about the what ifs....haa...but I guess what's most important is what you have on hand and what you can do to make things better. :)

I came across this song lately..."差一点" by 阿杜 and thought this is a very nice song :) There's always stories around you that depicts people in different periods of their life meeting the right people and meeting the wrong people. I'm pretty facinated by these stories and realised that these stories surrounds the word FATE. It is true that many things in life can be controlled by your own actions and decisions but there is also this unique element call FATE that depicts how endings will be. It is something which we can't control but it magically moves the situation around us.

Sometimes FATE brought 2 people together just to send them apart, sometimes FATE bought 2 people together and it can last for a lifetime. FATE can also allow you to meet the wrong person at the right time and also meet the right person at the wrong time. Guess this is life..For those who meet the wrong person at the right time, I'm sure you will be able to learn from those lessons and experiences and grab the next opportunity with a more prepared mentaity. For those who meet the right person at the wrong time, perhaps these people are meant to be just best of friends. As some may say, whatever you can't get your hands on are most treasured :) These people are definitely in your life for a reason, perhaps the reason is to bring happiness to you, perhaps they are here to teach you lessons of life and widen your horizons :)

Whatever FATE brings, I hope we all have the faith and courage to face and embrace it with open arms. God Bless :)

I watched the movie"17 again" yesterday evening and think it is a nice show. On first sight it looks like a chick flick and the only eye candy and main attraction of the movie is Zac Efron. It's true to a certain extend...I mean Zac is really really really very very very good looking!~ Haa...and this is the main reason why I wanted to watch this movie in the first place. *Guilty* To my surprise, there is more to the movie than just a handsome face. The movie reminds us that in life decisions that we make affect what's to become but is it just the decision that changes life..or is there more?  At times, we just blame the decisions but can it also be the attitude to life, attitude to how we treat the decisions that changes everything.

As humans we tend to whine and blame everything around us for what happens. "I gave up my deams to be a basketball player just to marry you and have kids and when things dont turn out well, you blame your wife and kids for "forcing" you into the decision and regreting that you didnt fulfill your basketball dreams." However, if you start looking at the issue/decision/unhappy situations from a different angle (Eg from the person's perspective) and also start looking at yourself (If you have done enough, if you have made an effort to change things). The decision/issue may not be that bad after all and perhaps you can even turn it into a favour to yourself! Amazing isnt it? :) *Of cos easier said than done la~* Haa...but if we start adopting this mentality, the world will be a much better place and we will start to treasure what we have instead of always comlaining :) I will start trying!!!  :):):)

Someone close to me told me something yesterday when I wanted to offer him some of my freshly baked tarts: "Pls do not contact me anymore. Thk you." This person once held a very dear position in my heart. A huge piece of my life is spent together with him. He saw me thru' my schooling days and saw the transition of an innocent school girl to a blossoming young lady. It's fate that brought these 2 strangers together and fate that dictates that they should not be kept as friends.  

This is the very last time that I will be talking about him...

We met many years ago at this restaurant call Ponderosa which is no longer in existence now. He is the senior waiter there and I was working there on a part-time basis while waiting for my "A" level results to be released. I was this young, innocent girl who has never been in any relationship before and have never worked in my entire life. I was very sheltered and not street smart nor fashion savvy at all. He was my first love. The first time I met him I already have an instant liking to him. He is like this big brother I never had. He is street smart, hardworking, filial and has a passion for things he do. He failed the first time he wanted me to be his gf but succeeded the second time round. We been through lots of ups and downs and I literally grew up with him. He is very protective of me yet allowing me to see and experience things I have never experienced before. He broght me to different places and taught me many practical life experiences. I was very happy then. I will wait for him to knock off work or he will fetch me from school or I will go to his house to wait for him to finish work. Everyone thought we will get married someday....

Things change as we cruise along in life. As we start to see more of life and what it brings, our expectations change as well. As I gradually removed the protective shield that he placed on me, I began to understand what I want and crave for. People always say a long term relationship which doesnt lead to marriage will usually lead to an end.  It's true that there are many distractions when I step into the workforce but I feel that besides these distractions, I was never truly happy and satisfied in the relationship as time progresses. I feel that I needed more things and I needed different things as well. We tried to make it work but still it fails.

We moved on in life after that and found ourselves another companion and we are doing relatively well in our own careers. We remained as friends thereafter and catch up for coffee once in awhile.

TL, for the very last time I want to say thank you and sorry.

Thank you for:
The good times and bad times we shared
The experiences you gave me
Flowers every V day and my Bday
Cards and gifts on all special occassions
Teaching me bowling and cycling
Moulding me from a little girl to a young lady
Nagging at me to save $$
Always buying me stuffs
Sharing my love for music and singing
Encouraging me to pursue my studies

Sorry for:
Causing you pain and heartaches during the course of the relationship

However, standing in a position of a long time friend, I still feel sad when you said that sentence yesterday. That we can no longer be friends and we should have nothing more to do with each other anymore. I reckon it is due to your existing relationship that you need to take this course of action. I just want to say all the best in whatever you do and may you have a fruiful relationship with your current love and may your career take to greater heights. You will always be a part of me and I thank you.